I have no wish to choose. But I have come to the last page of my journal and, living or dying, shall write in this volume no more. It closes upon a life of much childishness and great sinfulness, whose record makes me blush with shame; but I no longer need to relieve my heart with seeking sympathy in its unconscious pages, nor do I believe it well to go on analyzing it as I have done. I have had large experience of both joy and sorrow; I have seen the nakedness and the emptiness, and I have seen the beauty and sweetness of life. What I have to say now, let me say to Jesus. What time and strength I used to spend in writing here, let me now spend in prayer for all men, for all sufferers, for all who are out of the way, for all whom I love. And their name is Legion, for I love everybody.
I love everybody! That crowning joy has come to me at last. Christ is
in my soul; He is mine; I am as conscious of it as that my husband and
children are mine; and His Spirit flows forth from mine in the calm
peace of a river whose banks are green with grass and glad with flowers.
If I die, it will be to leave a wearied and worn body and a sinful soul
to go joyfully to be with Christ, to weary and to sin no more. If I
live, I shall find much blessed work to do for Him. So living or dying, I
shall be the Lord's.
~ Stepping Heavenward - Excerpt from Katy's final journal entry, dated June 30, 1860.